When you going to freind's wedding, how do feels? Envy? Mad? Sad? Yeah, i feel it.
Why he not coming like other? Maybe Allah is testing you.
But, can i meet my soulmate? Insya Allah. Allah preparing the best one for you.
Is he? I don't know. Just wait, keep trying, and always pray.
How old are you? I'm 26 y o.
Are you worried? Yes, but i believe Allah loves me so Allah want me to wait until he can find me here.

Wedding is like the scariest thing for me now. I should be happy for them, because my friends or my cousins even my little sister found Mr. Right. I glad, but when someone asking you "How about you? When? Do you have boyfriend? You graduated, you've been working in great company, so what do you want to do more?"

Why they keep asking me with that questions? Is forbidden if i'm 26 and still don't have boy friend? Is that sin if you success in career but there is no man in your life? Why Allah want me to wait?

For me, wedding is not like run competition. Someone who fastest took finish is the most happiest person in the world. Which means, someone who the rearmost position is person who painest. Allah prepare someone for me. Allah save the best for me. But i don't know who is he, how can i meet him.

If you watch serial "How I Met Your Mother" you will understand how Ted's feels. It's same with me. I've been seaching Mr. Right, but maybe we should met other person who gives you some lesson about life.

So now, what should i do? Prepare everything. Make me look brighter than usual, make me proud on myself, and make me visible. Fix my personality, change bad attitude, smile, and keep praying. I believe Allah always hear my dua.