That's great quote from tri advertisement. It's really "menohok". Sometimes i wanna going back when i still 2 yo, so i don't have to think my sister, or my future, or my marriage.

It's really annoying. You've been so much hard to make all happy even you didn't happy. And now i should do something that i don't wanna do. It named "jadi orang dewasa"?

When too much pressure like this, what can i do? Pray and hope everything gonna be okay. Kartini says "Habis Gelap Terbitlah Terang". But what i feel today? "Habis gelap, akan ada gelap yang lebih gelap lagi. So prepare it". Really pessimist? Yeah, i do.

Oh ya, i want to tell my story about someone. I met know him on facebook 6 month ago. We chat. We talked. We discussed. But we never met. I got trapped. I like him, but he doesn't. Hahaha it's embarrassed right? How you could like someone who never want to met you? Yeah, it's just happen. He knows what i feel, but i can't do anything. I've been trying so hard *i think. Why he doesn't want to meet me?
I don't know. As i know, his gf keep trying to their relationship. He even told me about married with her. It's sick. I have no idea why i keep trying to get closer with him. Oh yeah, he worked so far away.

All my friends want me to stop keep doing that. So i stop. But, every time i wanna to forget him,, he always popping on my mind. Hahaha it's really suck. Really suck. He always on my pray to his safety. I hate being like this but i don't know how to stop it. Maybe i should meet with other guy and make some distract.

Really teen right? Hufffffffttt, i hate being like this. Really dumb. But something i learn from him. He teach me how to love yourself more than anyone. So, i really thankful he came to my life and i always hope he will come back to my life. Someday