When you going to freind's wedding, how do feels? Envy? Mad? Sad? Yeah, i feel it.
Why he not coming like other? Maybe Allah is testing you.
But, can i meet my soulmate? Insya Allah. Allah preparing the best one for you.
Is he? I don't know. Just wait, keep trying, and always pray.
How old are you? I'm 26 y o.
Are you worried? Yes, but i believe Allah loves me so Allah want me to wait until he can find me here.

Wedding is like the scariest thing for me now. I should be happy for them, because my friends or my cousins even my little sister found Mr. Right. I glad, but when someone asking you "How about you? When? Do you have boyfriend? You graduated, you've been working in great company, so what do you want to do more?"

Why they keep asking me with that questions? Is forbidden if i'm 26 and still don't have boy friend? Is that sin if you success in career but there is no man in your life? Why Allah want me to wait?

For me, wedding is not like run competition. Someone who fastest took finish is the most happiest person in the world. Which means, someone who the rearmost position is person who painest. Allah prepare someone for me. Allah save the best for me. But i don't know who is he, how can i meet him.

If you watch serial "How I Met Your Mother" you will understand how Ted's feels. It's same with me. I've been seaching Mr. Right, but maybe we should met other person who gives you some lesson about life.

So now, what should i do? Prepare everything. Make me look brighter than usual, make me proud on myself, and make me visible. Fix my personality, change bad attitude, smile, and keep praying. I believe Allah always hear my dua.

Setiap orang pasti punya rasa takut. Bisa binatang, benda, orang, keadaan, dsb. Tingkat rasa takutnya juga macam-macam. Nah, orang biasanya bilang phobia. Kalau dibuat list macam-macam phobia uhhhhh banyak banget. Ada satu hal menarik dari tweet 9GAG soal "Anuptaphobia ". Do you know what is that??

Anuptaphopia itu semacam rasa takut menjadi atau selalu single. Ada juga artikel lain yang bilang kalo phobia ini malah bisa sampai takut memilih orang yang salah pada saat menikah. Is that u??

Well, ada test yang bisa dilakukan. Hanya 2 menit atau kurang untuk test ini.

Bukan dari masalah test atau tidak ikut testnya, but i have some symtoms. Awalnya sih ga nyadar, but sometimes it hurt. Really suffering when realize of being single. Kalau saja lingkungan sekitar tidak memaksakan atau bisa dibilang tidak membahas, maybe i never thinking about it. Forget bcoz work and study.

Jadi mau nyalahin lingkungan?? Hmmm, ga juga sih. Tapi mungkin itu jadi salah satu penyebab awalnya kenapa saya memilikii gejala itu.

Gejalanya banyak banget, baik dari fisik sampai mental. Secara mental, kadang kita merasa selalu sendiri, tidak merasa pantas unruk siapapun. Segimana cantik/gantengnya itu bakalan hilang karena gejala ini. Terus juga jadi malas atau menjadi-jadi kalau ada yang dikecengin. Ganggu banget kan? Dan bisa banyangin dong, yang ngrasa itu cuma kits sendiri. Seolah-olah ga ada 1 orangpun yang bakalan ngerti perasaan ini.
Secara fisik misalnya sering berkeringat, pusing, berdebar-debar, sakit perut tapi aneh, dsb.

Cara menanggulanginya?? Curhat ke orang yang bisa dipercaya atau makin mendekatkan diri ke Tuhan. Ga ada yang bisa ngrubah diri sendiri selain kita sendiri.

Bahkan sampai tulisan ini dipublish, saya masih mengidap Anuptaphopia... Hehehe

Allah will always hear and know what the best for me.